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wow..just now i saw the last date i entered this blog..is 2008/9/21...means i m more than 7 months never write any words at here..haha..maybe that time is my honey moon..so i don't need to writing at here..=)

As i said just now, the period i missing is my honey moon...but, y m i here now???Izit end of my honey moon???i m not sure yet actually..just i felt that, the boringness are getting serious and serious on my life..so find something to enter or to write...

Jessbaby..i know that u will never know about this blog cos i din give to u this blog link..so..i would like to write a letter for u at here...

Jess:

Baby..did u know that..how suffer m i in this relationship???since i started this relationship..i just only have 1 purpose..is wan u become my lifetime partner. If u really wanna play, so sry..i think we better end up with breaking process in this relationship..because, i really can not accept that, my gal are playing around with her guy's friend same to u donwan to see me playing around with my gal's friend..it is the same feeling..this few week i really think alot..suffer alot..u know..u not like tat since the relationship started..u are just like that in this few weeks..u know..in my heart, i got alot alot of question marks..how come will change so suddenly..i told u b4..but u tell me that u are like this since together with me..no any guy like to see his gf playing with guy around..do u agree??only thing is u have to choose..have to sacrificed either 1..i m just a very very simple person that only wan together with u in the rest of my life..tats it..maybe i m just not suitable for u or maybe u need ur bf can play with u..but unfortunately..i m not..when u go out with ur friend..do u know i m worry about u??u know about urself..u are not good in refusing ppl..u are just VERY GOOD IN REFUSING ME...u are very easy to influenced by ur friend but u dono..this letter is not to scold u but just to tell u..u are too good..just now..u said i m pushing u to the end..i m just asking for ur accompanies because today is the date with together for half year..u know..if last time..u will straight come and find me even u know i m bored..but today..i m really very DISAPPOINTED..just because u said u wanna with ur friend..is ok..is fine..everything is over..maybe u really dono wat actually a relationship are..in a relationship..is to find ur lifetime partner..or maybe u think i m not suitable to be ur lifetime partner..baby..just let me know..i m not limiting u with ur friend..but do u realize??i m just 2-3 hours for u in 1 week sometime for 2 weeks..is that the relationship u wan??so sry..i dowan..some more..wat u said and wat u promise b4..everything i got mark down..i m very fed up and disappointed to ur attitude..maybe after u read this blog..u will angry me more and more but actually..since i wrote this blog..i m ready for tat..for the worst thing will happen..i wont regret..cos i fight for my love and for my relationship..even i lost it..i will sad..but i work hard..really hard for it..

TODAY

Today i felt down and moody..not because i need to training on today, after i came back from the workshop, suddenly, the feeling come to me..it really makes me feel sad, i told ying about it, ying ask me y i moody, i cant answer her.. cos me myself also don't know why i m like this..lol..funny ya?! Every time when i moody, i wish i can sleep and don't think about it, but unfortunately, i m just lying but not sleeping, haiz, AIYA!!!so BORING AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A bad news, my boss told me, HARI RAYA got open also.. A good news, i decided to take leaves again~haha..wakkaka... I wan to explain, is not i lazy or anything, but just, every day do the same thing, i really feel tat it is BORING!!!!! But i know i need to complete my training too, my marks is here..zzz..my training end on 25th of October..hehe..count down together with me..!!!i wan go college!!!

relax

hihi, is me again..haha..(stupiak..this is my blog ma..surely is me lo..hehe~)..hmp..actually i really dono wanna put wat title about this blog..i wanna to write something..but i dono wat is actually in the middle..so sry if i put a wrong title ya..=P

now i m having my training..frankly, this few days, i m not really tat happy..everyday when i wake up..the first thought is..haiz..wanna go work d..it is a very big diff between last time and now..last time even though i m very very tired..but this time..hmp..maybe is my mind control me d..i must control my mind..

everyday after i came back..after bath, the first thing i did is, watch series movie..actually i m not tat like to watch series movie..cos it takes long time and sometime the movie is very good..but sure got some part is the bad ppl 1..so..hehe..i don like..but this time i watch the hong kong series..about mooncake festival 1..called jia hao yue yuan..i m very very esteem the mummy in the series highly..because, she said, every mummy in this world got 1 thing only..is wan her son/daughter be good..rich or not..is not the most important thing..this make me miss my mummy..i know my mum and my dad..they love me so much..and i know i did alot of things make them feel disappointed..but i know they never and wont give up me..when i see the mummy in the series(her name is ho mum..)after her husband together with his worker named ah hong..(not me ya..hehe)she still wan all her son and daughter with her..but things not come tat easy..she lost 3..(actual story i dowan to describe at here..very long la..go watch urself=P)the story is..she always think for her son and daughter but not herself..very highly respect..although i respect her..but i know my mum and dad never lose to her..cos i know my mum and dad always think for me and prepare for me..although i know i m big enud..n i can prepare everything for me..when i go back my home..i see my mum and dad..they older and older everyday..but i cant really accompany them..actually i m not really like to come here study..i wanna to teman them..but my dad ask me to come..(since i m here..i promise myself i will fight for all and i will do my best at here...wont let them worry me)..everyday before i sleep..i will think..how's my mum and dad today?when i go back..my mum will prepare the food tat i like the most..and my dad will go take coconut juice for me to drink..(in front my home got a very big place to plant the coconut tree..)in my mum and dad's thinking..they just wan me to live healthy but not hope i can be dragon(chinese ppl ma..sure wan son be dragon 1..=P)..i really miss them alot at here..really...

About Me~

lol..is very very long time din write blog d..feel like abit lazy..hehe..finally i got time to write blog d..cos now i m having my on job training..is a very stupid training..every morning i need to go tat workshop on 930am..(but actually sometime i m late:P)and go back on 8pm every working day(saturday includedT_T)tat 8 pm hor..is not really zhun zhun 8 pm can back d..but sometime when reach my home is 9pm= =..haha..sad life..
Now, talk about my house..hehe..currently my house have 6members include me..is a very sad thing..cos actually my house consists of 7 members at the first..but 1 ppl quit this course alrdy..so i wish him success in his future and keep in contact.. The 6 members..1 is from sungai buloh..called ah weng..he is a very sohai and stupid ppl..but actually he is quite smart too(in money matter)..1 is from pahang, triang..actually i not really know about where is triang..but just listen to him lo..hehe..he 22 years old d..is the oldest among us..but also the sohaiest in my house..haha..p/s: ah weng 21 years old.. his name is yao yang..although he sometime got some actions tat i cant really get wat he means..but in fact, he is also a co-operate ppl..2 from terengganu..1 is called ah fu another 1 is called guo wei..ah fu ler..17 years old nia but he always said he is 18 cos he born at 1990..but not yet reach his birthday..so consider 17 la..right?tat guo wei ler..is my roomate..he ah..haiz..very lazy like a worm..but actually he is hard working..he lazy in study maybe he don like this course gua..cos when talk about football..he very geng 1..u simply said 1 ppl name, he can tell u where the player from and currently in wat club and etc..1 from johor, segamat..his name is ah hao..he ah..20 years old d..but..swt..he like my father..always talk dao li to me..WAH!!but he not bad la..nice ppl too..hehe..teng teng teng teng~~the last 1 is me..hehe..no need describe d lo..those ppl who reading this blog means know me d lo...hehe..ya..is the 20 years old and the smartest ppl(other ppl said 1..not me praise myself:P)haha..we moved in about 2 months d..actually i m having the great time over here and i hope this will never end..but recently..haiz..cos of small matter..make til this house very noisy..everyone of us in this house came from different places..means our lifestyle are very very difference..i m not hoping tat must mix to all the lifestyle..but..i just hope tat this few members can think for others when u do something or decide something..i will appreciate it..really..anything also can bring to talk..tell other ppl how u think..don keep it..
LOLz~stil got wat to write ler?hehe..oh ya..my training life..very bored..T_T..everyday do the same things..do it again and again..this training started since 25th of august..til today 8th of september..i take jor 5 days leave..wakakka..is not i purposely wan to take 1..but just i sick jor..haiz..u all must understand ma..single is like this 1 la..haha(will be shoot by xin ying d- -)kidding la..but after i involve myself into this working life..i felt tat is not very hard to folo it..but..the working time is very very long la..i beh tahan la..although last time when i working with my sony Ericsson's boss..my working time is 9am- 11pm..lagi cham..but tat is diff..cos deal with customers..this is deal with car..so sad la..T_T..haiz..wah!!see my handphone..now alrdy 10 16pm d!!!not yet eat..swt= =..don worry..i bath alrdy..hehe..ok la..is time for me to go eat d..haiz..working life..........i will write again..

LIFE

woh..really tired man..on thursday, 12/6/2008, 12.30pm..finally i finished my last paper on first exam in my TOC life..haha..frankly, dono why, after i finished up my last paper..i felt tat i m so free and dono wat should i do..LOL..before exam, i really hope tat exam will end up faster..but now..haha..after i finished my exam..new thing comes to me..i have to move in new house..sobz..is very tired man..but luckily, i got house mate..they really helps me alot..haha..thx ya~after i settled everthing..i realize 1 thing..i forget to take my cup!!!wat the hell= =..the time tat i wanna enjoy my coffee..but i forget to take!!haiz..usually i will taste my coffee and write blog..hehe..enjoy ma..^_^..after moved in a new house..i know it is very hard..cos i m the one who incharge of the things..include the water, electric, streamyx, rent, alot and alot..damn man...zzz..at here, i really wanna say something to u brother david yuan xi..tat day u msn me and said, "i m so disappointed to saw u there today.."..i din explained to u at that moment..actually, i will go there cos they said u, ai nee, and yue fen jie will go..ya..even though i saw u there..but seems like u are not happy..i can feel it..but is nvm..cos u dono the true..and also is my problem cos i not usually reply ur msn..hmp..i just wanna say, u are my brother forever..take care in ur future..i will pray hard to u..u are the one who know me the best, i never change since the first day we know each other til now..is the same ppl..hope u can understand..it is very tired if staying in kl..rush and busy..2 months over alrdy..i stil have 2 years and 4 months..very soon..........

P/S: xin ying..thx to u for teaching me so many things..i know u are going to KOREA to study d..is ur dream..thx GOD..take care urself over there..recently i know u are busy so i better dowan kacau u..haha..but don worry..is ok..u busy ur stuffs..will pray hard for u..byeee...

single's day

LoLz~while i was thinking, wat title should i put for this time??recently i recalled back alot of things..among tat, there is half of it is about relationship..haha...tats y my title is single's day...wah..almost 1 year d my single day...actually i m not suitable to said tat my single day is more than others..as the ppl i know..there is alot of them..their single's life longer than me..like today..while i was talking with my friend outside his room..we talked about relationship with gals..he said," steve, u no need to worry la..u so handsome, sure can get alot of gals if u wan.."(be frank, this is truely, really from my friend but not me=.=)but for me, i don really think it..cos i know, i m not as good as he think, i got alot and alot of weaknesses..alot of things happened to let me cant let it go.. Got a friend from my hometown..she said, " steve, i hope u can let both of my friends go...." frankly, i don like to misunderstand wat she think, so i din think about wat is the meaning of her words to me..but actually i know the " both of my friends " is who..i clear about it.. in this single's day..i do really feel tat wat is the feeling of alone.. i don like to mix up with the ppl tat i don like, maybe u can say me LANCI..but, this is me..i dono y, i really rather to alone if i need to go out or chatting with the ppl tat i donlike..i admit tat, i m not a ppl tat everyone welcome..cos if i donlike somebody, i will write on my face..haha..really thxful to God..he gives me alot of good friends in this college(of course also got bad too..XD)i give them good, meaning i can talk my secret to them, share with them, they will mentally support me(stil the same until now..hope future will be too)maybe this is wat good friend means, honestly, i do not have this kind of friend at last time, my friends in college really teman me alot in my single day, thx alot...if somethings tat should be forgotten, forget it...to make urself wont be feel so suffer..is very struggle..i face it..but i cant solve it..don ask me y..cos i really got no the strength to solve it..don worry..after this week i will went back my hometown for 1 week ++, so tat time u wont see me and u wont be unhappy( maybe=P)..actually maybe someone read this blog, u might not really understand wat i trying to said, but frankly, i also dono wat m i writing now..p/s..i m the person who never get things back if i give it out, once i give it out, it is no longer belong to me, don try to give me back, it is consider no respect me, i will angry..thx..(moody, headache)

Weekend Holiday

Last week..after i finished my project..(actually is a stupid bench work=P)..i went back to my hometown for 3 purposes,1)teman my family,2)attend my church family camp,3)to see someone..ya..i done all my 3 purposes,but with sad and bad feeling..first of all,i very happy while i m doing this 3 purposes..teman my family go eat dinner and breakfast, having some great time with my mum and my sister..in the family camp,i do really happy and have a great time with my brother sisters, and my pastors..i talked alot b4 i sleep in my chalet..and my bro pray for me..is great!he is going to face his most important problem in this December, which he is going to marry!i do really happy to heard this news..as i know, he is a very responsibility people,and he will treat his wife as good as he can..really jealous!tat night we really talked alot..he said many things to me..and he pray for me..in his prayers..he hope tat God will lead me to a gal..LOL!ya, really..i trusted God..He will lead me..and also my pastor..he asked me.."u got so many time in kl,do u take the time and go tackle gal?"i said,"i m not as good as u know,so i din go tackle gal"..he said,"good good,God will lead u"...my church got so many guys,like my age,y only ask me..swt la..haha..tat day,while i m driving back to bm,(forgot to say tat the family camp is in Sungai Petani)im with sad mood,is not the camp make me feel sad,but is ur eye contact with him,really really broke my heart..actually i shouldn't said in this way..cos u are just my FRIEND, and friend got no this right to jealous or to break heart..haha..dono y,i fully understand wat friend's mean..but i cant..really..sry to said tat..as a 3rd person..i can feel tat u are still like him but u just ignore ur feeling and said both of u are friend..finally..the night, i sent a msg to u,and i told u tat u really need to teman him cos he is going back to his hometown..pls..be true to urself..this is the words tat u told me b4..izit?HAHAHAHA...i really think too much d..good nite,and GOD bless...