A good [Friend]'s LeavinG

now 17/12/2007 Time:2155 i look to my calendar...suddenly i saw a date which is 6/1/2008..is a sad day...on tat day...my good friend is leaving...[but she will come back after few months den will leave again...]haha...she ah...today said wanna giv me lessons...how to becoming an attractive guy~haha...actually i really thxs her alot...without her help..maybe i m still in a sad mood..haha...anyway...she is too good...frankly...sometime i really misunderstand her...ya is true..but i know she is just trying to help me...and nth that helping me...haih...haha...is good too...maybe is abit sad~haha..but...i really appreciate this friend...and she is gonna to go UK for her study d...as a friend...a good friend...i really hope she can find her mr right soon~

理想~dreams~~

到底什麼是理想？什麽是抱負？從我中學時期開始...我都有開始做part-time還是salesman...當初還覺得...eh...不錯嘛..工錢蠻高的~但是呢...現在的感覺...好像不夠喔...怎麼辦？有人問我..你想做什麽？就去做啦..還想什麽呢？還加一句...有些人想做但是沒有機會做...= =看了就有點....我不清楚到底我要的是什麽..真的...到現在...說老實的話...我還對我的人生不確定!可能你會說..還早啦..才19歲..根本不需要去煩...從小...我從我姐姐那邊學了一樣東西...就是不要等到雨要下時才找雨傘...真的...到你真正需要的時候才來找..真的太遲了...人生短短幾十年...我真的不想錯過...現在我在半功讀當中...辛苦...當然不在話下...‘唔辛苦點得到世間財’...可是老實說...我並不喜歡...雖然我現在的狀況不錯...至少負擔自己沒有問題...學費住宿吃穿不愁...但是我並不滿足...真的...到底我的理想是什麼呢？我看沒有人懂...連我自己都不懂的東西...我看在這個世界的每一個人都不知道！除了哪萬能的神萬能的主...主啊..請你告訴我...別擔心...我還撐得住...撐多一年半載不是問題...但是我真的不想在浪費時間...我不想呆在一個不屬於我的地方！我不想！

心情

瓦~~第一次用華文寫部落格..哈哈~感覺怪怪的=.=~~但是畢竟是我的母語~~出醜一次也無所謂~呵呵~~
心情..這兩個字..到底代表著什麽？心情..可以讓你一整天都快樂..也可以讓你一整天都不快樂..真是恐怖!!!當我在開始寫這個部落格的時候..其實我是帶著蠻開心的心情寫的..但是..當我想到..我的一個朋友時..真的..我又失落的..爲何？爲何？難道我還惦記著她？但是我知道..我並不是惦記著她..而是我還關心她..
她..是我小學的朋友..坐在我旁邊..我還記得..呵呵..每次我去學校..我一定到兵乓室報到..而她..就會到那邊催我回班交功課..有時當我沒有交的時候..她就會一整天都在我耳朵旁eeoo~~~難受啊！小學6年級最後幾天..我卻因爲家裏的事..必須到kl小住幾個月..所以我們都沒有彼此聯絡..中學都有彼此的生活~完全沒有聯係~~到了大學先修班~我們又遇回了..~是上帝的安排~一定是！就是在我遇回了她后~我認識了上帝~還有一班的兄弟姐妹~..那時的我..在想..我是否找到自己的終生伴侶呢？原來..上帝很奇妙..它讓她離開了..我不怨..從開始到現在到以後..我都不會埋怨..爲何呢？因爲我知道..上帝是不會害我的..我不是說她不好..只是可能上帝知道..她和我在一起..她是不會開心的..我曾經看過一篇散文..上面有一句..就是..愛她並不是一定要擁有她..愛是尊重和包容..（重點）我知道上帝要我學習的功課..老實說..在那個時候分開..我心里很不好受..有段時間..我都不想和人說話..但是有一天..上帝派一個人來告訴我..不要沉醉在傷心里..其實我很感激她的..（告訴我這句話的人..另外一個''她''了)是她..讓我重新開始建立信心..讓我找回以前的我..還有兄弟們的幫忙..上帝真好..曾經我家裏是反對我成爲基督徒..我現在知道..當初我的堅持是對的!AMeN!
她現在在大學了..前幾天她離開了她的家鄉..我知道她不捨得..但是她不得不去..朋友..照顧自己..保重..我不會忘記你的..
我對她現在真的只有對朋友的心..有個人..她問過我..你能忘記她嗎？你知道你真正要的是什麼嗎？我不懂她的這句是帶有什麼意思..但是我想告訴她..我知道我自己的意思..也知道我自己的心情..就是我想和你在一起..但是我知道你還有很多事情要去做..你可以放100個心..我不會逼你..我愛你..就要尊重你的決定..我已經不夠細心一次了..那次的代價很大..我會好好把握這次..決不讓你輕易從我手中讓你離開..我保證...(別被我嚇倒= =,我不會吃了你lolx!）

a special day

today is a very special day~~i tell her something secret~~she ask me back..do u really forget it??do u sure that ur feeling is true??hmp...let me tell u...i cant forget...but...my feeling is true..is true baby...maybe u are not confident to my answer...but i hope u will accompany me...accompany me to forget it...don leave me...this is wat i hope...(my christmas hope~~too early d~Wakakak!~)

sadnesses

haiz..i m sry to GOD...i shouldnt sad everytime...but...something happens make me feel down...today she come back d...she called me...listen to her voice...i knew that she is sad...(but is not related to me)...after that..i went to work...dono y,,today i make alot of mistake...some mistake that i never make...y?!?Izit related to her???yes i think...but i m not thinking of her...i just...feel very guilty to her...sry...just now,,wen i work,,i seems like dreaming...i make myself get injury...steve!!!wake up!!!u shouldnt make this kind of stupid things...is not worth to be like this...she will never know and wont kesian to u...u should look forward~~!!

thx a ppl~~

thx u dear...u know who i saying this to~(english not good don laugh me=p)really thx u~wen i down...u teman me...wen i sad...u talk to me and ur smile really makes me happy and feel comfortable to stay with u...maybe...we are not able together forever...but i m still thx u...is u tell me...life still goes on...don be sad...u must wake up...don lying in sad pool....(something like this la=p not really rmb liao ~lol!!!)thx u for encourage me...hmp...i got something in my heart...but i dono whether i should say it out to u or not...maybe...i should keep in forever...

wat ever u do and wat ever u wish to do...i m always there to support u and be with u...until tat day u said u no need me anymore...thx..............

love...

m i suck?haiz...2 years d...since we meet back...ya...maybe i m not good enud...but...this happened few months ago d...til now...i m still cant forget it...but i m tam po tam po beh gi liao~~haha...forget it...maybe is my fault...i cant hold it well...yesterday i go find my friend..my friend ask me...eh?where is ur gf?i speechless....after all..he said...how could this happened?she is a gud gal...y u don appreciated her well?from my friend's word...i can see it...i m not good...even my friend also said this...haha~~~maybe i not have the zi ge to love her....

i m not blaming or anything...i know her since we are primary school(lol= =)...den we lost contact after prmary school until we meet in form 6...haha~~is GOD~thx GOD~~~AMeN!~although i cant be with u~but i still hope u can live happy and xing fu~my love wont gone if we cant together...may GOD bless u~haha~