wow..just now i saw the last date i entered this blog..is 2008/9/21...means i m more than 7 months never write any words at here..haha..maybe that time is my honey moon..so i don't need to writing at here..=)
As i said just now, the period i missing is my honey moon...but, y m i here now???Izit end of my honey moon???i m not sure yet actually..just i felt that, the boringness are getting serious and serious on my life..so find something to enter or to write...
Jessbaby..i know that u will never know about this blog cos i din give to u this blog link..so..i would like to write a letter for u at here...
Jess:
Baby..did u know that..how suffer m i in this relationship???since i started this relationship..i just only have 1 purpose..is wan u become my lifetime partner. If u really wanna play, so sry..i think we better end up with breaking process in this relationship..because, i really can not accept that, my gal are playing around with her guy's friend same to u donwan to see me playing around with my gal's friend..it is the same feeling..this few week i really think alot..suffer alot..u know..u not like tat since the relationship started..u are just like that in this few weeks..u know..in my heart, i got alot alot of question marks..how come will change so suddenly..i told u b4..but u tell me that u are like this since together with me..no any guy like to see his gf playing with guy around..do u agree??only thing is u have to choose..have to sacrificed either 1..i m just a very very simple person that only wan together with u in the rest of my life..tats it..maybe i m just not suitable for u or maybe u need ur bf can play with u..but unfortunately..i m not..when u go out with ur friend..do u know i m worry about u??u know about urself..u are not good in refusing ppl..u are just VERY GOOD IN REFUSING ME...u are very easy to influenced by ur friend but u dono..this letter is not to scold u but just to tell u..u are too good..just now..u said i m pushing u to the end..i m just asking for ur accompanies because today is the date with together for half year..u know..if last time..u will straight come and find me even u know i m bored..but today..i m really very DISAPPOINTED..just because u said u wanna with ur friend..is ok..is fine..everything is over..maybe u really dono wat actually a relationship are..in a relationship..is to find ur lifetime partner..or maybe u think i m not suitable to be ur lifetime partner..baby..just let me know..i m not limiting u with ur friend..but do u realize??i m just 2-3 hours for u in 1 week sometime for 2 weeks..is that the relationship u wan??so sry..i dowan..some more..wat u said and wat u promise b4..everything i got mark down..i m very fed up and disappointed to ur attitude..maybe after u read this blog..u will angry me more and more but actually..since i wrote this blog..i m ready for tat..for the worst thing will happen..i wont regret..cos i fight for my love and for my relationship..even i lost it..i will sad..but i work hard..really hard for it..
