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2009-05-03T12:40:00.000-07:00

wow..just now i saw the last date i entered this blog..is 2008/9/21...means i m more than 7 months never write any words at here..haha..maybe that time is my honey moon..so i don't need to writing at here..=)

As i said just now, the period i missing is my honey moon...but, y m i here now???Izit end of my honey moon???i m not sure yet actually..just i felt that, the boringness are getting serious and serious on my life..so find something to enter or to write...

Jessbaby..i know that u will never know about this blog cos i din give to u this blog link..so..i would like to write a letter for u at here...

Jess:

Baby..did u know that..how suffer m i in this relationship???since i started this relationship..i just only have 1 purpose..is wan u become my lifetime partner. If u really wanna play, so sry..i think we better end up with breaking process in this relationship..because, i really can not accept that, my gal are playing around with her guy's friend same to u donwan to see me playing around with my gal's friend..it is the same feeling..this few week i really think alot..suffer alot..u know..u not like tat since the relationship started..u are just like that in this few weeks..u know..in my heart, i got alot alot of question marks..how come will change so suddenly..i told u b4..but u tell me that u are like this since together with me..no any guy like to see his gf playing with guy around..do u agree??only thing is u have to choose..have to sacrificed either 1..i m just a very very simple person that only wan together with u in the rest of my life..tats it..maybe i m just not suitable for u or maybe u need ur bf can play with u..but unfortunately..i m not..when u go out with ur friend..do u know i m worry about u??u know about urself..u are not good in refusing ppl..u are just VERY GOOD IN REFUSING ME...u are very easy to influenced by ur friend but u dono..this letter is not to scold u but just to tell u..u are too good..just now..u said i m pushing u to the end..i m just asking for ur accompanies because today is the date with together for half year..u know..if last time..u will straight come and find me even u know i m bored..but today..i m really very DISAPPOINTED..just because u said u wanna with ur friend..is ok..is fine..everything is over..maybe u really dono wat actually a relationship are..in a relationship..is to find ur lifetime partner..or maybe u think i m not suitable to be ur lifetime partner..baby..just let me know..i m not limiting u with ur friend..but do u realize??i m just 2-3 hours for u in 1 week sometime for 2 weeks..is that the relationship u wan??so sry..i dowan..some more..wat u said and wat u promise b4..everything i got mark down..i m very fed up and disappointed to ur attitude..maybe after u read this blog..u will angry me more and more but actually..since i wrote this blog..i m ready for tat..for the worst thing will happen..i wont regret..cos i fight for my love and for my relationship..even i lost it..i will sad..but i work hard..really hard for it..

TODAY

2008-09-21T08:59:00.000-07:00

Today i felt down and moody..not because i need to training on today, after i came back from the workshop, suddenly, the feeling come to me..it really makes me feel sad, i told ying about it, ying ask me y i moody, i cant answer her.. cos me myself also don't know why i m like this..lol..funny ya?! Every time when i moody, i wish i can sleep and don't think about it, but unfortunately, i m just lying but not sleeping, haiz, AIYA!!!so BORING AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A bad news, my boss told me, HARI RAYA got open also.. A good news, i decided to take leaves again~haha..wakkaka... I wan to explain, is not i lazy or anything, but just, every day do the same thing, i really feel tat it is BORING!!!!! But i know i need to complete my training too, my marks is here..zzz..my training end on 25th of October..hehe..count down together with me..!!!i wan go college!!!

relax

2008-09-16T09:50:00.000-07:00

hihi, is me again..haha..(stupiak..this is my blog ma..surely is me lo..hehe~)..hmp..actually i really dono wanna put wat title about this blog..i wanna to write something..but i dono wat is actually in the middle..so sry if i put a wrong title ya..=P

now i m having my training..frankly, this few days, i m not really tat happy..everyday when i wake up..the first thought is..haiz..wanna go work d..it is a very big diff between last time and now..last time even though i m very very tired..but this time..hmp..maybe is my mind control me d..i must control my mind..

everyday after i came back..after bath, the first thing i did is, watch series movie..actually i m not tat like to watch series movie..cos it takes long time and sometime the movie is very good..but sure got some part is the bad ppl 1..so..hehe..i don like..but this time i watch the hong kong series..about mooncake festival 1..called jia hao yue yuan..i m very very esteem the mummy in the series highly..because, she said, every mummy in this world got 1 thing only..is wan her son/daughter be good..rich or not..is not the most important thing..this make me miss my mummy..i know my mum and my dad..they love me so much..and i know i did alot of things make them feel disappointed..but i know they never and wont give up me..when i see the mummy in the series(her name is ho mum..)after her husband together with his worker named ah hong..(not me ya..hehe)she still wan all her son and daughter with her..but things not come tat easy..she lost 3..(actual story i dowan to describe at here..very long la..go watch urself=P)the story is..she always think for her son and daughter but not herself..very highly respect..although i respect her..but i know my mum and dad never lose to her..cos i know my mum and dad always think for me and prepare for me..although i know i m big enud..n i can prepare everything for me..when i go back my home..i see my mum and dad..they older and older everyday..but i cant really accompany them..actually i m not really like to come here study..i wanna to teman them..but my dad ask me to come..(since i m here..i promise myself i will fight for all and i will do my best at here...wont let them worry me)..everyday before i sleep..i will think..how's my mum and dad today?when i go back..my mum will prepare the food tat i like the most..and my dad will go take coconut juice for me to drink..(in front my home got a very big place to plant the coconut tree..)in my mum and dad's thinking..they just wan me to live healthy but not hope i can be dragon(chinese ppl ma..sure wan son be dragon 1..=P)..i really miss them alot at here..really...

About Me~

2008-09-08T06:41:00.000-07:00

lol..is very very long time din write blog d..feel like abit lazy..hehe..finally i got time to write blog d..cos now i m having my on job training..is a very stupid training..every morning i need to go tat workshop on 930am..(but actually sometime i m late:P)and go back on 8pm every working day(saturday includedT_T)tat 8 pm hor..is not really zhun zhun 8 pm can back d..but sometime when reach my home is 9pm= =..haha..sad life..
Now, talk about my house..hehe..currently my house have 6members include me..is a very sad thing..cos actually my house consists of 7 members at the first..but 1 ppl quit this course alrdy..so i wish him success in his future and keep in contact.. The 6 members..1 is from sungai buloh..called ah weng..he is a very sohai and stupid ppl..but actually he is quite smart too(in money matter)..1 is from pahang, triang..actually i not really know about where is triang..but just listen to him lo..hehe..he 22 years old d..is the oldest among us..but also the sohaiest in my house..haha..p/s: ah weng 21 years old.. his name is yao yang..although he sometime got some actions tat i cant really get wat he means..but in fact, he is also a co-operate ppl..2 from terengganu..1 is called ah fu another 1 is called guo wei..ah fu ler..17 years old nia but he always said he is 18 cos he born at 1990..but not yet reach his birthday..so consider 17 la..right?tat guo wei ler..is my roomate..he ah..haiz..very lazy like a worm..but actually he is hard working..he lazy in study maybe he don like this course gua..cos when talk about football..he very geng 1..u simply said 1 ppl name, he can tell u where the player from and currently in wat club and etc..1 from johor, segamat..his name is ah hao..he ah..20 years old d..but..swt..he like my father..always talk dao li to me..WAH!!but he not bad la..nice ppl too..hehe..teng teng teng teng~~the last 1 is me..hehe..no need describe d lo..those ppl who reading this blog means know me d lo...hehe..ya..is the 20 years old and the smartest ppl(other ppl said 1..not me praise myself:P)haha..we moved in about 2 months d..actually i m having the great time over here and i hope this will never end..but recently..haiz..cos of small matter..make til this house very noisy..everyone of us in this house came from different places..means our lifestyle are very very difference..i m not hoping tat must mix to all the lifestyle..but..i just hope tat this few members can think for others when u do something or decide something..i will appreciate it..really..anything also can bring to talk..tell other ppl how u think..don keep it..
LOLz~stil got wat to write ler?hehe..oh ya..my training life..very bored..T_T..everyday do the same things..do it again and again..this training started since 25th of august..til today 8th of september..i take jor 5 days leave..wakakka..is not i purposely wan to take 1..but just i sick jor..haiz..u all must understand ma..single is like this 1 la..haha(will be shoot by xin ying d- -)kidding la..but after i involve myself into this working life..i felt tat is not very hard to folo it..but..the working time is very very long la..i beh tahan la..although last time when i working with my sony Ericsson's boss..my working time is 9am- 11pm..lagi cham..but tat is diff..cos deal with customers..this is deal with car..so sad la..T_T..haiz..wah!!see my handphone..now alrdy 10 16pm d!!!not yet eat..swt= =..don worry..i bath alrdy..hehe..ok la..is time for me to go eat d..haiz..working life..........i will write again..

LIFE

2008-06-13T00:07:00.000-07:00

woh..really tired man..on thursday, 12/6/2008, 12.30pm..finally i finished my last paper on first exam in my TOC life..haha..frankly, dono why, after i finished up my last paper..i felt tat i m so free and dono wat should i do..LOL..before exam, i really hope tat exam will end up faster..but now..haha..after i finished my exam..new thing comes to me..i have to move in new house..sobz..is very tired man..but luckily, i got house mate..they really helps me alot..haha..thx ya~after i settled everthing..i realize 1 thing..i forget to take my cup!!!wat the hell= =..the time tat i wanna enjoy my coffee..but i forget to take!!haiz..usually i will taste my coffee and write blog..hehe..enjoy ma..^_^..after moved in a new house..i know it is very hard..cos i m the one who incharge of the things..include the water, electric, streamyx, rent, alot and alot..damn man...zzz..at here, i really wanna say something to u brother david yuan xi..tat day u msn me and said, "i m so disappointed to saw u there today.."..i din explained to u at that moment..actually, i will go there cos they said u, ai nee, and yue fen jie will go..ya..even though i saw u there..but seems like u are not happy..i can feel it..but is nvm..cos u dono the true..and also is my problem cos i not usually reply ur msn..hmp..i just wanna say, u are my brother forever..take care in ur future..i will pray hard to u..u are the one who know me the best, i never change since the first day we know each other til now..is the same ppl..hope u can understand..it is very tired if staying in kl..rush and busy..2 months over alrdy..i stil have 2 years and 4 months..very soon..........

P/S: xin ying..thx to u for teaching me so many things..i know u are going to KOREA to study d..is ur dream..thx GOD..take care urself over there..recently i know u are busy so i better dowan kacau u..haha..but don worry..is ok..u busy ur stuffs..will pray hard for u..byeee...

single's day

2008-05-23T11:39:00.000-07:00

LoLz~while i was thinking, wat title should i put for this time??recently i recalled back alot of things..among tat, there is half of it is about relationship..haha...tats y my title is single's day...wah..almost 1 year d my single day...actually i m not suitable to said tat my single day is more than others..as the ppl i know..there is alot of them..their single's life longer than me..like today..while i was talking with my friend outside his room..we talked about relationship with gals..he said," steve, u no need to worry la..u so handsome, sure can get alot of gals if u wan.."(be frank, this is truely, really from my friend but not me=.=)but for me, i don really think it..cos i know, i m not as good as he think, i got alot and alot of weaknesses..alot of things happened to let me cant let it go.. Got a friend from my hometown..she said, " steve, i hope u can let both of my friends go...." frankly, i don like to misunderstand wat she think, so i din think about wat is the meaning of her words to me..but actually i know the " both of my friends " is who..i clear about it.. in this single's day..i do really feel tat wat is the feeling of alone.. i don like to mix up with the ppl tat i don like, maybe u can say me LANCI..but, this is me..i dono y, i really rather to alone if i need to go out or chatting with the ppl tat i donlike..i admit tat, i m not a ppl tat everyone welcome..cos if i donlike somebody, i will write on my face..haha..really thxful to God..he gives me alot of good friends in this college(of course also got bad too..XD)i give them good, meaning i can talk my secret to them, share with them, they will mentally support me(stil the same until now..hope future will be too)maybe this is wat good friend means, honestly, i do not have this kind of friend at last time, my friends in college really teman me alot in my single day, thx alot...if somethings tat should be forgotten, forget it...to make urself wont be feel so suffer..is very struggle..i face it..but i cant solve it..don ask me y..cos i really got no the strength to solve it..don worry..after this week i will went back my hometown for 1 week ++, so tat time u wont see me and u wont be unhappy( maybe=P)..actually maybe someone read this blog, u might not really understand wat i trying to said, but frankly, i also dono wat m i writing now..p/s..i m the person who never get things back if i give it out, once i give it out, it is no longer belong to me, don try to give me back, it is consider no respect me, i will angry..thx..(moody, headache)

Weekend Holiday

2008-05-19T09:41:00.000-07:00

Last week..after i finished my project..(actually is a stupid bench work=P)..i went back to my hometown for 3 purposes,1)teman my family,2)attend my church family camp,3)to see someone..ya..i done all my 3 purposes,but with sad and bad feeling..first of all,i very happy while i m doing this 3 purposes..teman my family go eat dinner and breakfast, having some great time with my mum and my sister..in the family camp,i do really happy and have a great time with my brother sisters, and my pastors..i talked alot b4 i sleep in my chalet..and my bro pray for me..is great!he is going to face his most important problem in this December, which he is going to marry!i do really happy to heard this news..as i know, he is a very responsibility people,and he will treat his wife as good as he can..really jealous!tat night we really talked alot..he said many things to me..and he pray for me..in his prayers..he hope tat God will lead me to a gal..LOL!ya, really..i trusted God..He will lead me..and also my pastor..he asked me.."u got so many time in kl,do u take the time and go tackle gal?"i said,"i m not as good as u know,so i din go tackle gal"..he said,"good good,God will lead u"...my church got so many guys,like my age,y only ask me..swt la..haha..tat day,while i m driving back to bm,(forgot to say tat the family camp is in Sungai Petani)im with sad mood,is not the camp make me feel sad,but is ur eye contact with him,really really broke my heart..actually i shouldn't said in this way..cos u are just my FRIEND, and friend got no this right to jealous or to break heart..haha..dono y,i fully understand wat friend's mean..but i cant..really..sry to said tat..as a 3rd person..i can feel tat u are still like him but u just ignore ur feeling and said both of u are friend..finally..the night, i sent a msg to u,and i told u tat u really need to teman him cos he is going back to his hometown..pls..be true to urself..this is the words tat u told me b4..izit?HAHAHAHA...i really think too much d..good nite,and GOD bless...

1 month at my college d~.~

2008-05-05T08:17:00.000-07:00

haiz..i dono whether is God playing with me or really my beloved one not yet come out..everytime wen i have some good feeling with a gal..the gal sure got bf or something else such as she is going to study at oversea and etc..i think i m the bad luck people..this week is the 5th weeks and also the 3rd subjects tat i going to cover it..this subject are really really BORED!!LOL...so sad..n i was having a bad headache and fever..i really hope there is a ppl who concern me and make me feel better..(other than doctor la...=p)maybe i shouldnt rush..but..i really desperate..dono y..and i think tat i m affair and i lost the passion to start a new relationship with new ppl..a funny story here..a gal in my college..it is a only 1 actually= =..last few day after i finished my basketball game..me and my friends sit together and talking crap..suddenly they mentioned about the gal..she named eline..this is the following conversation.........."steve, eline is not bad wat..y u dowan to have her as ur gf?" and i said.."u all know she got bf d..y stil ask me to go and chase her?i seems like to be a 3rd ppl between a relationship...." they said,"steve, now the world change alrdy..u should fight for ur own but not thinking for others..if u care for others, who is gonna to care for u??" and i answered, "she is a kl ppl and she got bf d..now she is having a good relationship,if u all ask me to be 3rd ppl and break other ppl's relationship..is cruel..some more..i m agree that i really have a good impression to her..but since she got bf d..y don just hope she will happy?"den my friends all scold me stupid,stupiak la...haha~by the way..love a ppl doesnt means must have her/him..yeah right?

A new life,new style,new way in KL~

2008-04-22T08:51:00.000-07:00

LOL!!haha..long time din write on my blog d..hehe..wow..is great!!haha..in KL..in car engineering this sector..i find that it is really a challenging sector!it is different from last time wat i had study and dispose to~..although it is hard..but!i trust myself..and GOD..cos i know GOD will always with me and show me the way(but at first i need to study too la=p)..some time really tired and feel like very suffer..cos KL is not my hometown..sometime i will blame too..y?y?y must come to KL and study?i really dono why tat time i make the decision to come to KL and study this car engineering!!??!haha..i really suspect myself..whether got do wrong decision or not at first..but now..is totally different..totally!i dono how other ppl think of me..maybe they think.."ala...just say nia ma..i also can la.."=P..but~i really think that,if we wan,nothing can beat down us..sometime just the negative thinkings affect us..diuz lo~we are what we are..nothing can control us..unless GOD..and GOD will not lead us to death..although maybe it looks like a dead way..BUT..GOD will prepare for us..just need we step the first step toward him..he will help us..cos we are son and daughter of GOD..TRUST ME..GOD will always be with us=P..pray when u feel down or face problem..I pray alot at here..also got pray for other ppl la...LOL..never think that i will be like this..but i like this way i be..thx GOD..this is my first step..and i will continue toward u..in jesus name..AMEN!

心路歷程...

2008-03-03T18:13:00.000-08:00

哈哈~首先恭祝大家新年快樂~萬事如意~事事順利~今年的新年好象和往年不大一樣哦...總覺得比較靜了一些>.<..在一個晚上...一個人的時候（其實通常都是我一個人^^沒有伴)..我在想..到底什麼定義是愛情?什麼又是友情呢？從書上，友情可以變成愛情，愛情又可以變成友情，是不是很玄呢^^?有時...我們會誤會..到底這個女生是喜歡我們嗎？其實是no的..可能她只是把你當朋友...如果我們當真..可能我們會受更大的傷害...其實這個並不是他們的錯...其實我們自作多情...人家又沒有說喜歡你..幹嗎把頭撞進去呢？我本身呢..就經歷過了...我承認是我自己自作多情...哈哈..但是並沒有讓我們的友情不見了..雖然我沒有機會疼你or保護你...但我還是希望你會過得很好..而且..你自己也很厲害的~哈哈~不可能受傷的啦...上帝會安排最愛你的..最疼你的..來愛你來疼你...輪不到我擔心...你也放心...我會過得好好的...哈哈...你曾經教我很多很多的東西..真的哦...很難以想象..哈哈...由心感謝你..當我在寫著這個blog時..我聽著周傑倫的"我不配"...這首歌真的讓我感觸良多...有時晚上聽著聽著..竟然會哭！oh no!哈哈...可是..這是真的..可能是心情的關係..尤其是這兩句...

"這感覺已經不對我努力在挽回
一些些應該體貼的感覺我沒給
你嘟嘴許的願望很卑微在妥協
是我忽略你不過要人陪 "

感覺不對..在一起也是枉然的..勉強在一起也是沒有用..我不懂為何我到現在還放不下..我知道我自己沒有這個條件在開始另一段感情..所以我選擇離開..可能你說這是我選擇逃避..但..我想問..我能怎樣呢？放下？我曾經努力...但是需要目標...我真的承受不了了...壓力壓得我快透不氣來了...我...不是一個很好的對象...

p/s: 瑩..我知道你不會看~blekz(特地的)..真的很謝謝你哦..在我最需要人陪的時候..你陪著我..我知道我們只是朋友..你對我的關心..我會永遠記在心里..你快要去讀書了..希望你找到你的白馬王子..加油！不必擔心我(知道你不會的>.<)我會過得好好的...再聯絡吧...再見"朋友"...........

A good [Friend]'s LeavinG

2007-12-17T05:52:00.000-08:00

now 17/12/2007 Time:2155 i look to my calendar...suddenly i saw a date which is 6/1/2008..is a sad day...on tat day...my good friend is leaving...[but she will come back after few months den will leave again...]haha...she ah...today said wanna giv me lessons...how to becoming an attractive guy~haha...actually i really thxs her alot...without her help..maybe i m still in a sad mood..haha...anyway...she is too good...frankly...sometime i really misunderstand her...ya is true..but i know she is just trying to help me...and nth that helping me...haih...haha...is good too...maybe is abit sad~haha..but...i really appreciate this friend...and she is gonna to go UK for her study d...as a friend...a good friend...i really hope she can find her mr right soon~

理想~dreams~~

2007-12-13T12:21:00.000-08:00

到底什麼是理想？什麽是抱負？從我中學時期開始...我都有開始做part-time還是salesman...當初還覺得...eh...不錯嘛..工錢蠻高的~但是呢...現在的感覺...好像不夠喔...怎麼辦？有人問我..你想做什麽？就去做啦..還想什麽呢？還加一句...有些人想做但是沒有機會做...= =看了就有點....我不清楚到底我要的是什麽..真的...到現在...說老實的話...我還對我的人生不確定!可能你會說..還早啦..才19歲..根本不需要去煩...從小...我從我姐姐那邊學了一樣東西...就是不要等到雨要下時才找雨傘...真的...到你真正需要的時候才來找..真的太遲了...人生短短幾十年...我真的不想錯過...現在我在半功讀當中...辛苦...當然不在話下...‘唔辛苦點得到世間財’...可是老實說...我並不喜歡...雖然我現在的狀況不錯...至少負擔自己沒有問題...學費住宿吃穿不愁...但是我並不滿足...真的...到底我的理想是什麼呢？我看沒有人懂...連我自己都不懂的東西...我看在這個世界的每一個人都不知道！除了哪萬能的神萬能的主...主啊..請你告訴我...別擔心...我還撐得住...撐多一年半載不是問題...但是我真的不想在浪費時間...我不想呆在一個不屬於我的地方！我不想！

心情

2007-12-03T14:26:00.000-08:00

瓦~~第一次用華文寫部落格..哈哈~感覺怪怪的=.=~~但是畢竟是我的母語~~出醜一次也無所謂~呵呵~~
心情..這兩個字..到底代表著什麽？心情..可以讓你一整天都快樂..也可以讓你一整天都不快樂..真是恐怖!!!當我在開始寫這個部落格的時候..其實我是帶著蠻開心的心情寫的..但是..當我想到..我的一個朋友時..真的..我又失落的..爲何？爲何？難道我還惦記著她？但是我知道..我並不是惦記著她..而是我還關心她..
她..是我小學的朋友..坐在我旁邊..我還記得..呵呵..每次我去學校..我一定到兵乓室報到..而她..就會到那邊催我回班交功課..有時當我沒有交的時候..她就會一整天都在我耳朵旁eeoo~~~難受啊！小學6年級最後幾天..我卻因爲家裏的事..必須到kl小住幾個月..所以我們都沒有彼此聯絡..中學都有彼此的生活~完全沒有聯係~~到了大學先修班~我們又遇回了..~是上帝的安排~一定是！就是在我遇回了她后~我認識了上帝~還有一班的兄弟姐妹~..那時的我..在想..我是否找到自己的終生伴侶呢？原來..上帝很奇妙..它讓她離開了..我不怨..從開始到現在到以後..我都不會埋怨..爲何呢？因爲我知道..上帝是不會害我的..我不是說她不好..只是可能上帝知道..她和我在一起..她是不會開心的..我曾經看過一篇散文..上面有一句..就是..愛她並不是一定要擁有她..愛是尊重和包容..（重點）我知道上帝要我學習的功課..老實說..在那個時候分開..我心里很不好受..有段時間..我都不想和人說話..但是有一天..上帝派一個人來告訴我..不要沉醉在傷心里..其實我很感激她的..（告訴我這句話的人..另外一個''她''了)是她..讓我重新開始建立信心..讓我找回以前的我..還有兄弟們的幫忙..上帝真好..曾經我家裏是反對我成爲基督徒..我現在知道..當初我的堅持是對的!AMeN!
她現在在大學了..前幾天她離開了她的家鄉..我知道她不捨得..但是她不得不去..朋友..照顧自己..保重..我不會忘記你的..
我對她現在真的只有對朋友的心..有個人..她問過我..你能忘記她嗎？你知道你真正要的是什麼嗎？我不懂她的這句是帶有什麼意思..但是我想告訴她..我知道我自己的意思..也知道我自己的心情..就是我想和你在一起..但是我知道你還有很多事情要去做..你可以放100個心..我不會逼你..我愛你..就要尊重你的決定..我已經不夠細心一次了..那次的代價很大..我會好好把握這次..決不讓你輕易從我手中讓你離開..我保證...(別被我嚇倒= =,我不會吃了你lolx!）

a special day

2007-11-29T15:24:00.000-08:00

today is a very special day~~i tell her something secret~~she ask me back..do u really forget it??do u sure that ur feeling is true??hmp...let me tell u...i cant forget...but...my feeling is true..is true baby...maybe u are not confident to my answer...but i hope u will accompany me...accompany me to forget it...don leave me...this is wat i hope...(my christmas hope~~too early d~Wakakak!~)

sadnesses

2007-11-29T15:16:00.000-08:00

haiz..i m sry to GOD...i shouldnt sad everytime...but...something happens make me feel down...today she come back d...she called me...listen to her voice...i knew that she is sad...(but is not related to me)...after that..i went to work...dono y,,today i make alot of mistake...some mistake that i never make...y?!?Izit related to her???yes i think...but i m not thinking of her...i just...feel very guilty to her...sry...just now,,wen i work,,i seems like dreaming...i make myself get injury...steve!!!wake up!!!u shouldnt make this kind of stupid things...is not worth to be like this...she will never know and wont kesian to u...u should look forward~~!!

thx a ppl~~

2007-11-27T20:54:00.000-08:00

thx u dear...u know who i saying this to~(english not good don laugh me=p)really thx u~wen i down...u teman me...wen i sad...u talk to me and ur smile really makes me happy and feel comfortable to stay with u...maybe...we are not able together forever...but i m still thx u...is u tell me...life still goes on...don be sad...u must wake up...don lying in sad pool....(something like this la=p not really rmb liao ~lol!!!)thx u for encourage me...hmp...i got something in my heart...but i dono whether i should say it out to u or not...maybe...i should keep in forever...

wat ever u do and wat ever u wish to do...i m always there to support u and be with u...until tat day u said u no need me anymore...thx..............

love...

2007-11-27T20:35:00.000-08:00

m i suck?haiz...2 years d...since we meet back...ya...maybe i m not good enud...but...this happened few months ago d...til now...i m still cant forget it...but i m tam po tam po beh gi liao~~haha...forget it...maybe is my fault...i cant hold it well...yesterday i go find my friend..my friend ask me...eh?where is ur gf?i speechless....after all..he said...how could this happened?she is a gud gal...y u don appreciated her well?from my friend's word...i can see it...i m not good...even my friend also said this...haha~~~maybe i not have the zi ge to love her....

i m not blaming or anything...i know her since we are primary school(lol= =)...den we lost contact after prmary school until we meet in form 6...haha~~is GOD~thx GOD~~~AMeN!~although i cant be with u~but i still hope u can live happy and xing fu~my love wont gone if we cant together...may GOD bless u~haha~